“Approval is overrated. Approval and disapproval alike satisfy those who deliver it more than those who receive it. I don’t care for approval, and I don’t mind doing without.” - Gregory Maguire
To the collective “you”:
I’m sorry you don’t like everything about me. I’m sorry that I have quirks and faults. I know that I sometimes do things without really thinking, and sometimes I do think things through but I just don’t make the same decision that you would. I think that’s ok.
I could go through and write about every single fixation, obsession, shortcoming, and imperfection I have. I’d probably start with me always wanting to be right, and arguing to the death to prove it. I might mention my oddities and idiosyncrasies, like having to have doors closed and needing to walk on the left of people. I could go on and on about how I represent myself, showing different facets of my personality at different times to different people. I could elaborate about how sometimes I know infinitely more than I let on, and other times I know a smidgen less, and don’t want you to know that. You’d probably end up calling me out on not being able to name 5 professional hockey players, even though I swear that I adore hockey. We could even review my double standards or random hatred for Shania Twain.
I know I’m not perfect - I never pretended to be. And thank God I’m not, because perfection is boring and my faults, however horrible, separate me from the crowd. I hope to learn from my mistakes and eventually grow into the person I’ve always been meant to be. In the meantime, I think I’ll just worry about my own journey, and may my readers concern themselves with theirs.
No Responses »
